It's a new day.

Unfortunately, like a lot of my endeavors lately, this blog was a big fail.  If you can't tell, I've been feeling pretty blue lately.  So here's some stream of conscious reasons why.  I'm sad.  I don't know what I want from life.  I feel gross.  Lovely.  Those are some great thoughts huh?  I know, I have a fabulous life.  I have no reason to complain.  So....we're going to get back on this horse and try to improve some things.  Get healthier.  Take a healthier approach to life.  I'm not sure yet how that's going to happen.  But Jay and I are meeting with a training on Monday.  That way we can work out together.  Maybe I'll catch some of his dedication.  Here's hoping. 

Fail...

I'm sad.  Failure this weekend.  And to think I couldn't even make it through my first self imposed "challenge" for one week.  Grr...I'm really angry at myself, and disappointed.  What happened is so typical - it was my son's birthday party on Saturday and I told myself, no drinking.  But then everyone comes over...festive atmosphere...and poof, there goes my will power.  What was I thinking at the moment?  Like always I convinced myself that my challenge was not worth it.  That going through life without drinking is not really a lasting goal of mine so why bother?  Even now I'm wondering if this really was a good challenge to start out with - but regardless, I should have stuck with it.  So here goes...I'm starting again because I am determined to see this "road" of mine through each and every step.  I know my life can get better and I'm excited to see how I discover what "better" is.  I know there will be resolutions that work, and those that don't.  But I don't want to decide which ones are worthwhile and which ones are not until I actually stick with the challenge for the specified amount of time.  So here's my new approach:  1 challenge, 3 weeks.  1 new challenge every week.  If I "mess up" the clock starts again.  So here we are, restarting the clock on the "no drinking" challenge, and also starting a new one.  What will it be? It's a tough one for me - no snacking after dinner.  NOTHING.  That's right, as I tell my kids "the kitchen is closed" once I'm done with dinner.  This is going to be extremely difficult for me.  But I have to keep a positive attitude that I can do it.  I CAN DO IT.  So two challenges:  no alchohol, and no snacking after dinner.  End date:  Sunday Sept 16th.  It's going to be rough.  But I think I'll learn some things along the way...and that's what this is all about.

One day in

One day in.  I've been thinking a little more about how to approach this.  Is two weeks enough to commit to forming a new habit?  I think I remember someone telling me that it takes 21 days to form a habit.  Is that right?  I'll have to do some research.  The problem I see with that is that there are SO MANY things that I want to start doing with more regularity, and if I limit adding new habits to once every three weeks...well let's just say I'm not sure if I'm that patient.  Maybe I'll comit to a habit for 21 days, but add a new one each week.  A rolling list of new habbits if you will.  Humm...that sounds like it might work.  I'll give myself a few days to think about this...

Take off

I'm starting this blog as a personal tool for creating a healthier life.  I'm tired of big bang attempts to overhaul my eating habits, my exercise routine, my general approach to living a full life.  So I'm going to make simple, small changes .... and see how that works.  Because God knows what I'm doing now is NOT working!  So there we go...that's my mission.  Small, simple changes that I will vow to concentrate on doing for two weeks at a time.  Number 1 - take a break from alchohol.  Now let's be clear - I do not have a drinking problem.  But I do find that when I have a glass of wine or two at night, I tend to also indulge in food way more than I would otherwise.  On top of that, I wake up feeling just a bit more groggy than usual...if that's possible!  So here we go.  At least two weeks of no drinking.  So that's from now until September 6th for all of you keeping track.  There. I've written it down.  So now it has to happen,right?  Right?!